I've seen people commenting on some of my blog in which i've wrote some of my old poetry.

I guess i'll start posting my sad little complainings about life more often. You guys seem to enjoy reading what's going on within my heart.

this has been meuny. i love yall

Listen to the sound of the fine mesh

Watch with watery eyes.

The new world you will create.

Witness the sinister.

Experience everything with yourself.

Until it's time to leave.

Plan a new dream.

One that's not so ghastly.

But one in which you can rest.

A new world with old airs.

You can see yourself up close.

And you'll feel the pain of the unreal.

But be very careful.

If you stay awake too little.

You'll get stuck in a bad dream.

So know how you want to live.

Bear in mind that you will suffer.

But everything will be true.

What is the real achievement?

What acclaims the heart of the artist?

Is it living by dreaming or making the dream real?

I can't say anymore.

I'm too afraid of regretting it.

Should I insist on dreaming?

I'm afraid I'm trapped in a contradiction.

That they'll break my heart.

And that they'll betray my trust.

I have the courage to wear a uniform.

I want to be everything without knowing anything.

I'm in uniform to collapse.

Perhaps dreaming is a mistake.

The painful cry of a possible enchantment.

Like the mermaid in the sea.

I don't allow myself to despair.

I reconcile will with fear.

I'll never stop dreaming.

Even if I'm lying.

A fallacy that deceives the senses.

I insist on continuing.

A sordid glow comes over beauty;

Life shudders like earthquakes;

In the idyllic passing of the sea of the dead;

The collective narcissism of many peoples.

As I cry, my throat dries up;

Taking the uncertain sadness from me;

A lying statue carved from stone;

Blinding tears that lead nowhere.

Repeated words empty of content;

Phrases of effect with multiple emptiness;

Damned untruths that bear no fruit;

Justifies the poetic journey of the wandering self.

In death comes the time to hide;

For the dawn of what I cannot see;

The prodigal idea of a new world;

Here is the tale of yet another dead man.

A damn difficult poem to write;

A pencil that won't run across the page;

I leave the will of the filthy poet;

A poorly written letter from a lean boy.

Eternal fatigue that won't let me run;

Night of beautiful reasons to suffer;

I have no reason to die in the dark;

And let this dirty poem remain between us.

Praying for mercy, voices I never thought I would hear whispered words of commotion, sweet words, empty of content, but which at the same time gave me a sense of danger. The stress caused by the tense atmosphere that night made me think about how safe I had been in my own ignorance. The closer I got to deity status, the more it seemed that I was insane. The esoteric thoughts and ascetic ethos only made it even more explicit to me that I had lost myself in my own spirit.

In that terrifying circumstance, realising the presence of an entity still unknown to me, I felt my whole body go light, as if a miserable cold breeze were capable of knocking me to my knees. I don't know if I was afraid of that god who was probing me through the window, or if I was tormented by my inconsequential attitude of provoking him. 

I realised that this being of divine proportions was staring at me when I thought about closing my eyes. The sensation of his gaze was as if someone was trying to pierce my skin with their bare hands. With my eyes closed, I could feel its presence getting stronger and stronger, as if this being was standing in front of me, breathing its sigh of contempt into my face. Dread gripped my body and there was nothing I could do about it. My body didn't respond to my commands, all I did was keep my eyes closed, waiting for this god of mysterious intentions to leave me alone.

The sensation of that being's presence went beyond anxiety. It was as if, at any moment, it could swallow me up and tear me limb from limb. I can't explain why, but it seemed that mercy was not one of the options this god would consider viable as a solution to his problems. 

As a being of power, of maximum resolution of variegated issues, this god tends to behave like a being of sadism. It usually favours the most socially cruel, anthropophagic, morally dirty and humanly perfidious solution to the contradictions imposed on it. As this being stood in front of me, I felt that at any moment something necessarily bad could happen to me. 

But its presence was completely beyond a mere visit with sick intentions. That creature made up of filthy concepts made itself a part of me, as if it were holding out its hand to me, waiting for me to say hello. 

It wasn't customary for this god to be sympathetic to someone, unless that person was disgusting or had a completely denigrated part of themselves. 

I accepted his consideration for me; after all, a part of me is as rotten as any part of any other human being. This god seems to understand that I don't reject this rottenness, I just understand it as one of the necessary paths, a means, an end. The presence of that god, like the presence of many other gods to come, made sense at that moment. He came to me to become part of me, to bless me with his grace.

When consumed by his blessing, I couldn't notice that I had become even more capable of contempt, resentment, lust, etc. Perhaps accepting this piece of divinity made me even more human.

Just finished producing and mixing a new song called "acid ingot"!

Go check it out!!

here's the link btw:

Acid ingot

I cannot believe how much productive i've been since i joined ng.

This is absurd; i posted ONE HUNDRED SONGS in a matter of months, i don't think it's been 6 months since i joined this site and still. Holy cheetos, i can't believe it.

Ok, even though i posted many old songs that i had laying around my notebook's hd, i feel like it is really insane for me to acomplish such a thing.

Well, congrats for myself, i guess lol :P

xoxo, this has been meuny

Never thought that FIVE of my songs would ever get some big recognition wherever i'd post em.

Since i've joined Newgrounds, i've been very active on producing new content whenever i can. It never gets boring!!!

I gotta thank everyone for supporting me since i was only a small meuny posting some of my older stuff before i could even think on posting my most recent projects.

Well, might as well do a tbt abt all my songs that got frontpaged:

Tub Wheab:

This is my most recent work to get frontpaged; and to be very honest with everyone, this song was meant to be just an experimenting. I've downloaded many plugins recently and i've been testing those on a buncha stuff i've recently posted. I'm glad people liked it!!! Guess i'll download new plugins more frequently :rofl:

High Digital Mountains:

I don't know what to say about this one except it is a song in which i do something i never really do that often: rap beats.

I know how dumb it may sound but i'm not into making rap beats without having anyone to sing in it. Sometimes i wish i had a decent mic and a talented friend who could rap to make this collab happen but guess that'll never actually happen unfortunately.

Psonne:

It is one of my favorite songs period. I think i did well with its main melody and i cooked a nice and viby atmosphere for it. Don't have much to say about it. I just appreciate it.

Epic Streams:

Made way back in the days i didn't know yet a thing about mixing, i would compensate with extraordinary thinking and clever usage of time signatures. This song's "Chorus" is actually two times signatures clashing against each other. (The drums, at first, are playing a 3/4 swing groove, but then i changed it to a 4/4 amen break whilst the melody kept on playing a 3/4 ballad, breaking completely one's sense of time yet feeling its "unpredictability" in a "smooth" way.)

I Remain Hopeful:

Anyone that has listened to at least more than two songs i've made noticed that i like to change between music genres a lot. I think that most of my songs are unique because i cannot stay on making the same music genre for too much time - otherwise i'll go crazy!!!

I don't have much to talk about this song, everything you got to know about its history is written on its description.

This has been my tbt.

Anyways, i'll always apreciate when you guys support my work. I love when plp which i interact with seem to like the stuff i make - that is because i really like their stuff!!! I just found it neat when they come to the comments of my songs just to say at least "oy mate, i found this one jolly good-ay. Keep on the good work, will ya?". :PPPP

So, This has been meuny!!! I love you all. Xoxo

btw, i made a new song, go check it out, lad!

Here's the link just so you won't get lost:

ey, meuny here.

So, my style never stays still, it is always changing - and i look forward to keep it that way.

I don't think it is healthy to my mind to keep on doing the same thing over and over again - except when you love it.

That's why i'll never stop experimenting and breaking new boundries with my music.

Meuny is to experiment. If i get any recognition out of this experimenting, that'd be nice ngl but my top priority is to keep reinventing myself until i can look back to my old works and not be able to recognize myself - or rather, acknowledge how much i've changed...

anyways, all i wanted was to talk about this changing nature of mine.

xoxo, meuny.

I gotta thank everyone who kept in tune with my stuff since i started posting my silly goober tomfoolery which i call music on this site

Thanks, for listening to my music. For everything! Thanks 2023! Here it comes 2024!!!!

i shall do a recap of my year and do my very own Meuny awards!!!!!!!

Mw23 Knit (Ambient DnB Mix):

This is my final song for this month. Really liked how it came out to be.

here's the original one btw just so u can compare em:

Kaizo Shiitake:

This is the first song i published this month. It's one of my fav works.

Rubber Loner:

This isn't my first song on the site, but it feels like the first song i ever made. It feels like the start of a new era for me.

Now, the award for Meuny's favorite song goes to:

I REMAIN HOPEFUL!!!!!

It is my first ever song to get frontpaged; i almost cried when i saw it get 200 views at the time (and nowadays it got 3.000 views :P).

back in the day, i was used to get only 20 views on yt (my peak was 130 views).

So when i saw plp really listening - and above all, LIKING - that song, that sure made me happy!!!!

I never made anything like I remain Hopeful after that.

Overrall; this year has been amazing for me in newgrounds. But enought talk about me; let's talk about the friends i made along the way (lmao XD)

The first person i wanna talk about is G2961:

First off: What a talented lad!!!!!!!!

Didn't talk much with em, but many songs that they posted really influenced me in many ways throughout the year!

Here, i'll recommend some of my fav ones just so you can listen to em:

Last day;

i lost;

and last, but not least:

Exit Here!;

Anyways...

Even though i think G2961 may not see this, i still think they're a great artist!!! When they started to follow me back then i got really hyped like: "OH WOW SOMEONE FAMOUS IS FOLLOWING ME OMG OMG OMG".

Thanks G2961 for your support, mate. Love your music. keep up on the good work, lad.

I've met many other plp this year !!!!

CPUmiku!!!!

(here one of their songs) Heist:

Shookspinvso!!!

Antidesjoisosdhas (sorry lad, i'm not attempting to spell this one out lmao):

Anyhow, thanks, once again, for y'all's support!!!!!!

HAPPY 2024 LADS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KEEP UP FOR MORE MEUNY!!!!!!!

yours truly and only, meuny! xoxo

4 songs??? yea. It took me a ton of time to write these since my guitar's E string snapped. I couldn't properly finish one of the solos i've started to make for one of these songs.

Czizek Cocsekej:

I made this one testing out some ideas a friend of mine sent me (the harmony part was their idea).

Frustration:

This is my new favorite song of all time tbh. Don't wanna sound narcisistic but that is true! It came out to be just as nicely as it could!

Litk:

Had fun making this one. I guess i really like making heavy metal stuff even though i cannot record my own guitar :P

When october buried me:

Was trying to make an ambient + idm + dnb + idk when i was making this song.

This has been meuny. xoxo