I honestly can’t recognize myself. Looking at my works is as if I was staring at an abyss; a mirror that reflects only a blur of my face. When creating music, it is actually easier for me to see value within my songs – for I worked so much to create them –, however, it is harder to see my fingerprints in it. It is as if, way before I can see my songs as MY PROPERTY, it is a production already taken by someone else. It is as if my songs, even though it is I who created it, were not mine, but something meant for someone else besides me. I know I’m not the first one to feel like this – as if our artistic works were not ours, but someone else’s. And I know that this feeling is not exclusive to the artistic world.

When working normally, the feeling of alienation is equally suffocating. It is as if this thing that we are meant to do to REALIZE ourselves as humans is, a priori, not meant to be ours, but someone else’s means to realization. This feeling is so stuck within me that I can’t help but feel like I’m not human when working – whether it is when I am working on a piece of art or working to get something to eat; even when I am thinking, my thoughts do not feel as if it were mine, but someone else’s.

Anyways...

Even though I feel like my works are not meant for me, I enjoy them. If there's people that feels the same way, then I'd expect this capability of mine - of liking my own works - to be an exception; not because I am some sort of messiah, capable of being built different or something. Rather because I'm used to this feeling of alienation.

Well, it is just a thought.

This has been Meuny.

I'm not kidding, just go and recommend me smth. I need material for new songs.

yeehaww, happy pride month mates. go on and be lovin' each others!!!

It hurts, the rose

Its carnation tears the flesh and thrills

With beauty

Gushing tears and blood

Just recently finished making an album with some friends of mine.

It has been posted to newgrounds, it is a virus-inspired thingy!!

go check it out, mates:

Anyways, this has been meuny :)

Today, I've reached the mark of 150 songs posted to this site!!!!

Yayyy!!!

Congrats to me, I guess. :P

Here's the 150th song i've posted to this site:

Anyways, This has been meuny!

Yeah, that's right, lads. Someone interviewed my unknown ass. Go check it out if you're curious about how I think :P

https://skilledfella.newgrounds.com/news/post/1443749

It's a bit weird for me to talk about what happened this month, but it's interesting to comment on one thing or another.

Anyway, this was the most "fruitful" month for me as an artist. Even though I didn't post as many songs as I used to, at least I managed to maintain an interesting consistency, don't you think?

Four of my songs made it to the front page. The feeling of seeing these songs getting attention is really nice and I hope I can keep posting songs at this interesting rate.

I think the only song that hasn't gotten as much attention as I think it should is "Two Thousand". It's a song that mixes hyper pop with a number of other styles of electronic music. In particular, it's one of my favourite songs to listen to again. 

Anyway, it's been a great month; a lot of people have supported and guided me along the way. I learned new things, met new people and managed to prove myself once again as a musician and as a person. (ps.: it's not that hard not to be an asshole! Take the hint!)

I don't think I've ever been so productive in a month, even though I didn't post that much. I think it's been good to spread out the posting time. 

In fact, I think I should thank you for receiving these songs with such affection and taste. I think it's a bit rare that people like weird artists.

Anyway, thank you.

This has been meuny :P

I'm in the production of some singles just so my NG page won't die out.

I know I got myself a song frontpaged in the last couple days but even though it got 2k views in 3 days of existence, it kinda worries me how unactive I have been.

You know, I have a life outside the internet. I gotta do things that a normal human being normally would do. It is quite unnerving for me to enter this site without having anything to say or to share because it feels like an obligation for me.

I know it is not.

I'm postponing the EP thing a bit. It'll get released soon but not that soon. It is almost done, all i need is one more track and then it'll be posted exclusively here, on NG.

Also, another thing I wanna talk about a little.

Some people I've interacted with are known to have some controversial things related to them. I won't mention names but that worries me a lot. I am worried someone might mistake me for some sort of person I am not. I'm just an artist. All I do here is to post my art and to react on other people's art.

I know I may be weird or invasive sometimes but I mean no harm nor I mean anything macabre with anyone around me. It is just that I don't know how to properly interact with people in a language that's not my native tongue. If you misunderstood something I've said or found anything I've said or done rather offensive, please do tell. It is not my intention to harm anyone nor to harass anybody.

I'm saying this before anything shitty gets related to me. I know it'll, it is just a matter of time. Not because I'm a shitty person, but because i'm too naive and gullibe to tell apart wether or not I should interact with some people.

Even though I have my views on the world strongly afirmed irl. I don't like to mention anything related to my views on the internet for I don't want any commotion related to me. I just wanna make people happy and support anybody's will (as long as their will won't harm someone else).

I know this is a bit unexpected, all of sudden I am being way too political. But yeah, I thought it was needed for some reasons I don't really wanna mention.

anyways, this has been meuny.

What did you guys think about peppers' pop?

I'd really appreciate your feedback.