I honestly can’t recognize myself. Looking at my works is as if I was staring at an abyss; a mirror that reflects only a blur of my face. When creating music, it is actually easier for me to see value within my songs – for I worked so much to create them –, however, it is harder to see my fingerprints in it. It is as if, way before I can see my songs as MY PROPERTY, it is a production already taken by someone else. It is as if my songs, even though it is I who created it, were not mine, but something meant for someone else besides me. I know I’m not the first one to feel like this – as if our artistic works were not ours, but someone else’s. And I know that this feeling is not exclusive to the artistic world.

When working normally, the feeling of alienation is equally suffocating. It is as if this thing that we are meant to do to REALIZE ourselves as humans is, a priori, not meant to be ours, but someone else’s means to realization. This feeling is so stuck within me that I can’t help but feel like I’m not human when working – whether it is when I am working on a piece of art or working to get something to eat; even when I am thinking, my thoughts do not feel as if it were mine, but someone else’s.

Anyways...

Even though I feel like my works are not meant for me, I enjoy them. If there's people that feels the same way, then I'd expect this capability of mine - of liking my own works - to be an exception; not because I am some sort of messiah, capable of being built different or something. Rather because I'm used to this feeling of alienation.

Well, it is just a thought.

This has been Meuny.